Lesson Learned

I started this blog four times. Each time being a different subject. All of them having to do with things that happen or have happened in my life that make me mad or upset. I wanted to vent and write about these using the emotions I have at this very moment. But maybe that's not such a good idea. 

I have always said it takes me getting mad to get over something. I usually stay upset/hurt for a while, but after I get mad, I get over it. Its the easiest way to push some bad thing out of my mind. I think I do this because I tend to give people more chances than they should have. I give them benefit of the doubt that they never deserve. So when it all comes crashing down (as I suspected it would) its easier for me to be mad at them than myself. For years I kept journals...writing in them almost everyday. When I went back at the beginning of last summer and read them, I noticed this pattern. Eventually, after being mad, I learned to move on...thinking I was okay. I was stronger. Apparently I am still in this cycle. Its funny how one little piece of information can prove this. 

But maybe I actually am okay.

As I said, I wanted nothing more than to vent in this blog. But on my third time re-starting this I thought back on what I was so mad about...what hurt me so much. After about a minute of my heart beating so hard I thought it would come out of my chest...all the good came to me. All of the little things that made me smile. I don't regret. I learned.

Without the experiences from our past we cannot be the people we are today. Today I am happy. And I owe that happiness to all of the things I have experienced....good/bad or both. So I have to say Thank You. Thank You for pushing me back into the right place. Thank You for proving to me that I was on the right path to begin with.

I get that this is totally an ambivalent and ambiguous blog, but where would the fun be in telling you exactly what I am talking about? Besides, while these events may have had an impact on my life, they really aren't worth the time or effort it would take to expand on.

Ill leave you with a quote from the beautiful Marilyn Monroe:

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

Oh, Hello There...

Well, as usual, I have been bad about updates. To be honest, between school and work I have had no time to do things like blog. Sad. BUT tomorrow is my last class I have to attend for the semester. Technically I have two online classes next week, but I am turning in the work for those by Sunday (most of which is already finished). Then I have 2 weeks until my summer class starts. Ive realized that in the 5 years I have been out of high school I have attended classes EVERY semester. Gag. I am happy to say that this will be my last summer class and as of December of this year I will have my license. Took long enough!

Ok so mayyybe something other than school. Sunday was Kyle and I's 6 year anniversary!! We had so much fun!! We decided to go to Ballston to get some lunch before heading to China Town for the Caps game. We met up with Mitch and had some really good food and a great time catching up. I cant remember the name of the restaurant...but it was good. Kyle loved it because they sold something like 100+ beers. I tried some hard cider (in true "Becca Townsend" fashion as Kyle would say) which tasted like sparkling cider...so good! After lunch we went to Ben's place for a nap (and as I would say in true "Kyle House" fashion). As we were planning when we would leave for China Town I told Kyle I wanted to leave some time to go to Urban Outfitters since it was right next to the Verizon Center. He agreed and said he would shop as long as it wasnt in a Forever21 (my favorite store). We decided to get off at Metro Center and walk since we didnt want to change lines. Well my friends, guess what was stationed right outside Metro Center....The biggest forever21 I have ever seen! I think my laughter combined with his facial expression was the high light of my night. I spared him the torture of going in (more like he dragged me away)...but I have to say that Chinatown has some GREAT shopping and he promised we would go back. I really think Ill spare him from that and instead take one of the girls who will enjoy it.

We had amazing seats at the Caps game (thank you love).

 During Warm Up
(I crossed this off my 2011 list: sporting event. See my Feb 2011 post: The List)

Being my first game, I had no idea what to expect. On TV there are announcers talking and it sounds SUPER loud in the Verizon center. Not so much in real life. We did get pretty fired up in the 3rd period when with around 2 minutes we scored to tie the game. But...apparently it wasnt meant to be. I have never witnessed a more depressing crowd of people than those leaving the game that night. 

I wish our phones had been connecting to the internet that night. We really didnt get any service until we got home. And when we got home we learned that Osama Bin Laden had been killed. It would have been great to experience all the white house partying going on...since we were only a few blocks from it at one point. We are guessing that since there were so many people at the Verizon Center, paired with the fact that there were so many people downtown, the network just couldnt keep up (this generally happens on any major holiday anyway). Im not gonna go into my thoughts on the matter...except that I would like to see some troops come home now.

I think thats all for now. Im ready for summer. So many exciting things will be happening in the next few months!